We Miss You, Toni and Candace: Bring Back the Feminist Bookstore

Screen Shot 2014-06-23 at 3.29.56 PMThere are thirteen feminist bookstores left in the US and Canada, Paste Magazine says. Thirteen! I just spent thirty seconds on Google and found more than thirteen brick-and-mortar clown supply stores. Selling oversized novelty pants to aspiring child molesters is a more viable business model than selling feminist literature. That’s a bummer.

Why should this matter? No doubt some of the hundred-odd shops that have closed in the last 20 years were terrible self-parodies: spirit catchers and vagina pillows and an unpleasant fug of oolong and afghans. The survivors’ list doesn’t count the many independent bookshops that love and promote feminist authors but don’t limit their selection to them. Still, though. There is something fundamentally good about a place that exists to stock secondhand de Beauvoir and Virginia Woolf-quote coffee mugs, and something fundamentally sad about its loss. 

When I was 13 years old my aunt went to Austin, Texas and brought me back a T-shirt from Book Woman, one of the remaining thirteen. It had a cartoon of a bespectacled woman with crazy Cathy Guisewite hair in a room crammed hoarder-style with books. I don’t remember if there was a cat but there may as well have been. 

I loved this shirt. I wore it until the wash made the silkscreen fuzzy. If you cannot already picture the kind of 13-year-old girl I was, then maybe it would help to know that my seventh-grade teacher had the same shirt, and sometimes we wore it on the same day, and when I’d walk into the classroom and see that I was dressed like my 50-something middle school teacher we would give each other a double-thumbs hey! of recognition, and then I would sit at my desk and wonder, very sadly and quietly, why I did not have a boyfriend.

There were many things I did not understand about myself when I was 13, but one of the few things I did know was that reading made me feel happy and safe and present. This shirt, this emissary from some geeky paradise, was evidence that there were other women in the world who felt this way too, enough that physical structures had been built to welcome them and sell them stuff. The knowledge that such places existed, and that one day I would be old enough to drive to them myself, kept me going through an adolescence that often felt awkward and lonely. 

The decline of the feminist bookstore tracks with the decline of the bookstore, period, and of other independent retail shops that exist as a gathering place for people who love a very specific kind of thing. The Internet has, thankfully, made it much easier for girls who live miles from any kind of bookstore to find proof that they are not alone, and to find better reading than the bottom-selling authors favored by Portlandia’s Toni and Candace. (Could you put that away, please? Every time you point I see a penis.)

But the thing about the Internet is that you kind of need to know what you’re looking for. Something, anything has to go into that search box to get the journey started. I don’t know if I could have named the feelings that were satisfied by the knowledge that there were places that not only welcomed but celebrated women who lived in their own heads. Bookstores let you wander. The spines and back blurbs and staff picks offer the pleasure of coming across things you didn’t even know you wanted to know about. This is a precious and endangered thing in a tailored-content world. 

Also, if someone leaps out of the stacks at a bookstore and shouts that you should be raped or murdered as punishment for having spoken aloud, you get to mace them. This is another way that real life is better for women than the Internet. 

After college graduation I drove with a friend from California to our new home in Washington, D.C. We were looking for the freeway in Austin when I spotted a name on a purple strip mall awning and peeled into the parking lot. 

It was smaller than I thought it would be. The t-shirts were hanging above the cash register, including my seventh-grade shirt. I did not buy one, because by then I understood that there were ways to find your tribe without having to literally advertise the person you thought you were on your chest. When all else fails, though, it’s not a bad place to start. 

Photo via Celia White

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18 Comments

  1. emclaughlin1215 +5

    Those are not necessarily places I would expect feminist bookstores to survive!

  2. Sean_Sullivan +7

    Whoops, I accidentally scrolled down to the comments of that Paste article.

  3. juliamhc +8

    very proud to be a loyal patron of both A Room of One’s Own in Madison and Women and Children First in Chicago since my early adolescence. (I grew up in Chicago and had a Cool Aunt in Madison.) I am now also feeling extremely lucky to have grown up in an environment such that my initial reaction to this was “psh i call bullshit, there’s no way that there’s only 13 left and I’m intimately familiar with 2 of them”…. very sad that this is true 🙁

  4. macabre_salad +11

    I have lived in three of the cities that have these bookstores and thus I thought feminist bookstores were not rare at all. I feel both lucky and disheartened.

    1. mistakesmade +2

      Yes! And now I followed up and see that the women’s book stores in cities I have lived in (Hamilton and Toronto, ON) are both closed now. I didn’t know this was happening.

  5. elsamac +47

    Also, if someone leaps out of the stacks at a bookstore and shouts that you should be raped or murdered as punishment for having spoken aloud, you get to mace them. This is another way that real life is better for women than the Internet.

    Whoa, that’s a world-tilting piece of simple truth right there.

  6. jfmason +8

    My first semester teaching my own class (ages ago, last January) I was pleased as punch to be able to give my required book list to A Room of One’s Own. No guarantees that the students didn’t just go through Amazon anyway, but one does what one can to keep the shops around!

  7. carmencicero +3

    My mom’s tote devoted to library books is, in fact, a Book Woman tote! I had no idea it was an actual place.

  8. Emm

    There was a Toronto Women's Bookstore until it sadly closed in 2012. Many of my professors at the University of Toronto had us buy our reading through them. I was always happy to spend my money there. Wish it was able to stay open longer.

  9. apple_pi +4

    Book Woman is a place my mom took me early and often (as often as we were in Austin, which was at least two or three times a year from when I was about eight on up). As a grown-up lady, I still stop by there and get books, bumper stickers, shirts, pins, and so on. It is a little shabby, a little run-down, and a LOT awesome, comfortable, comforting, and necessary. I also take my sons when I can, because I think they should know and love feminist bookstores.

  10. brookshelley +6

    Bluestockings in NYC is one of my favorite bookstores of any type… and they’re super trans woman inclusive…
    Book Woman is in my city, but the only trans woman I know who has been there got yelled at for being trans. So, I avoid it… even though they have a class on tarot i’d totally like to attend.